Hello. My name is Stephanie, and I'm a selfish bitch.

I'm starting to realize (wisdom from being an old, almost 30 year old?) that maybe my husband is right when he gets mad at me all the freaking time. Maybe I don't do anything nice for him. Maybe I don't have sex with him enough. (We have awesome sex, but I just don't ever feeeeeel like it.) Maybe I don't take his thoughts and feelings into consideration, like, ever. Maybe he needs to hear nice things from me once in a while.

I don't want to read in the comments that I'm wrong, and he's a dick. Because I really am selfish. We live in MY hometown where MY family is, I control our money, I decide what will be on the TV in the evening. MY computer is in fine working order, while his is broke down and hasn't been fixed yet. I don't want to discuss feelings and all that crap, when he would love nothing more. GOD, I'm such a man. He is the primary caretaker of the kids now. Not that I need to defend myself here, but they are 11 and 9. They want to play baseball, football, basketball, video games... and so does he. I talk to them, I encourage them, I feed them, I wash their clothes, but mostly? I work all the time. I am failing as a wife, mostly, and as a mother, somewhat.

I know I have so many faults. Why do I blame all our problems on my husband? He is mostly a good man. He has his problems, but he's probably just an asshole because he's frustrated with me and all MY problems.

I'm not sure what to do about it, though. I went as far as googling "How to be a good wife" today. I didn't find ANYTHING helpful. There are so many sites and long rants geared towards men and how to make a woman happy, but nothing for the vice versa group. Is this because we women are SO convinced that men are the root of all problems and men are too afraid to put up a site to help us? I'd be afraid of me, if I were a man. Cuz I can be a roarin' bitch.