I'm happy to report today that the surgery went well.

Thank God for Scopalamine and Lortab.

I'm still dizzy and shaky, and fully bloated up with CO2. (Um, and yeah, all that stuff about referred shoulder pain? SO FUCKING TRUE)

I have three tiny incisions, not even a centimeter wide, each affixed with one tiny stitch.

To quote my mom, quoting my doctor- "She (I) was staring a hysterectomy right in the face," and, "it's one of the worst cases" he's seen.

He was successful, however, and was able to leave all my bits intact, and that, makes me fucking joyous. I'm gonna bake him a cake.

I haven't been able to speak to the doctor since the surgery, since I was (and still am) very drugged up. One can only imagine that these drugs are comparable to the ones you find out in a dark alley. So, I am to call him today. (I tried once already, but he's with a patient. Grr.)

I was given twelve pictures of my insides, all "after shots." He put in a lot of some kind of mesh to cover my bits, and that is supposed to keep the endo from attaching again. I can see some of it in the pictures. Ovaries are pretty. Except for all the burned laser marks. I have a picture up close and into one of my fallopian tubes. I think it's my favorite.

Endo removed. check.
Fibroid removed. check.

I've decided to go with the lupron. The doctor HIGHLY RECOMMENDS it. He said 6 months of lupron, then probably another surgery, then we're on our way to ttc again. I went out last night and bought two new fans for my bedroom, to help counteract all the hot flashes I'm sure to have.

I can't take a deep breath, because it hurts. My chest is really tight and my mouth is very fuckin dry. Other then that, I'm not in too much pain. I bought a really good heating pad too. It's quite helpful. Surprisingly enough, I'm in more pain today then yesterday for some reason.

Here's a list of drugs I got yesterday.
Fentanyl (comparable to morphine, before the surgery.)
Versed (again, before the surgery.)
The Anesthesia (don't know what it was.)
Two lortabs (right after I woke up in excrutiating pain.)
Three Demerol doses into my IV. (after surgery.)
Then another 6 lortabs throughout the day and evening last night.
Three lortabs so far today.

I wonder what kind of pain I'd be in without them?? I won't even go there.

My doc thinks I have a fighting chance to get pregnant after all is said and done. I'm really really happy about that. But not tooo hopeful.

I'll post an update after my doc calls and gives ME MY OWN information. (and maybe my post will be more coherent by then.)
I've reread this and realized that it's just a bunch of random shit, but my brain is very slow right now. Coherence is not possible under the influence.

Thank you all for being so supportive. I don't know where I'd be without each and every one of you in my corner. You all mean so much to me.

BIG SLOPPY KISSES ALL AROUND!