I'm just gonna bitch for a minute.

Pardon me.

When I go blog strolling, I sometimes get bored and want to find new, well, not new, but MORE blogs to read. I only read about 20 a day, and most of those lately don't have many new posts. (I know, I don't keep up on mine either... but I like to read ones that do.) I went to Julie's place to look at her "Great Big List of Blogs" for some entertainment. There are hundreds of blogs listed there! WOW. Hours and hours of fun. You'd think.

What bothers me, however, are the little commentaries that explain what each blog is about. Most say something about infertility. These are the ones I am especially interested in. Because, guess what? I'm in- fertile. I'M INFERTILE.

Granted, Julie has not updated the list since May, but that was, what, 4 months ago? I started by clicking on the ones that interested me: infertiles. What I found was that most of these blog writers were pregnant, or just had a baby. Others are like, Oh, Hell, Life Sucks, I'm SO Infertile. Let Me Tell You About My 1 1/2 Year Old Anyway. People are crying and boo-hoo-ing about being infertile for 6 months or a year.

You wanna know what? My Infertility Sucks. I didn't officially freak out until about the four year mark. I realize I had two kids to keep me company and busy at the time, but my GOD! Give it some time people! Like I said, most of the so-called infertiles on her list are pregnant now or have kids now. Um, hello, that's not infertile. You just had to wait more than 2 months to get pregnant. I also realize that some of them had a long, hard road to get that kid, and some of them used ART. I'm not bitching about them. It's those other WHINERS.

When you claim to have Secondary Infertility, make sure you are infertile first. Sometimes it takes a while. Sometimes you have to wait 8 years or more or possibly the rest of your life, like me.

God, I'm a bitch today.

*Yes, this does seem to be one of those "my pain is worse than your pain" posts, and I hate women who do that. I just suck today. I'm actually tempted to delete this whole post, but no one reads me anyway. So, I'll just go down right here and hit "publish post."